i admit defeat.
its really tiring to carry on.
i've lose & i will try to let go.

give me time to forget,
i hope i can.







* memories are the only thing i will take away.

hi.

today is a super super super bad dayyy i swear.
& im fucking pissed.
im sorry but i pissed to the extent that i cried.
sooo pardon the vulgarities yeah. :/

fuck lor.
my *** teacher is a pita seriously !
fyi if you dont knw what is a pita,
pita stands for "pain in the ass".
& i swear she is a pita.

why am i so pissed ?!
just bcos mrs.pita scolded me like fuck ?
what have i do to deserve her scoldings ?!
she insulted our parents okay !

the story goes like this,
she is going through some ans when the lesson is sooo over !
then rach & i were talking.
she point at us & she say,
"if your parents got no $ to send you overseas, then you better shut up & listen !"
but she obviously say in chinese laa.
then i was super pissed & said,
"you dont look dwn lor.."
& she bang the table like wtf then she started scolding me.
why ?!
cos she freaking hell misinterpreted what i said & she thought i said she look dwn on us !
which i totally mean she look dwn on our parents.
whatever lor pita ! >.<

okay !
i shall now do my chinese report & mob & econs hw !
busy busy busy !
byeeee.







* i wish you could smile & say hi to me just like before we got tgt. can you ?

look around don't you feel something missing?
i'm the one you promised you would love
but you gotta ahead so far away
while i'm holding on please turn around
i see you but i don't feel you
can't get your attention to save our love
look back and see me now
don't let me down please turn around

once doesn't mean anything to me
come show me the meaning of complete
where did our love go wrong
once we were so strong how can i go on?

when you told me you loved me
did you know it would take me the rest of my life to get over the feeling
when our little dream didn't turn out right
when you let me believe that you were incomplete without me by your side
how could i know
that you would go
that you would run
baby, i thought you were the one

why can't i just leave it all behind
i felt passion so bright that i was blind
then something made me weak
talking in my sleep
baby, i'm in so deep and you know I believed

when you told me you loved me
did you know it would take me the rest of my life to get over the feeling
when our little dream didn't turn out right
when you let me believe that you were incomplete without me by your side
how could i know that you would go
that you would run
baby, I thought you were the one

your lips
your face
something that time just can't erase
my heart
could break
all over again

heyo!

its parent's day todayyy.
but it wasnt doom day ?!
bcos my teachers said fairly good comment abt me yay !
mummy & daddy are reallyyy pleased hees.
except the part abt my results laa.

talking abt my results,
4 passes & 2 fail. -.-
however its nth to be proud of cos i merely just passed them.
seriously i really need to pull up my socks for promos.
which also mean i wont be blogging often alrdy cos im banned from com on wkdays. :(
might be a good thing for me though haha.

& yeah its really bad.
cos im still sick, awfully sickkkk. :/
i need some full speed recover potion,
cos i need plenty of energy to do my chinese report which is due on monday.
ohh my gawd damn stress. @.@
alright im tired.
byeeee.








* am i still in your heart ?

helloooo.
didnt went sch today too.
still sick awfully, awfully sick. :(
& i worrying badly now,
i must have miss out plenty of lessons & that means i need to do lots of self-studying.
anyone volunteer to help ? xD

ohohoh !
tmrw is parent's dayyy !
aww man its sooo freaking scary laa,
what are the teachers going to say man !?
i think i gonna get a heart attack like soon if i continue guessing haha.

damn that fever,
still refuse to go off.
stop bugging me laa i got better things to do beside eating med.
well at least i have tmrw, sat & sunday to rest. :/
get well soon mingli.

now i shall announce my near plan.
first i gonna study hard for promos,
secondly i gonna tk a gamble.
dont bother guessing if you dont knw haha !
i gonna wait & wait & wait & tk a risk.
i knw what im doing bcos both my mind & heart are agreeing to my plan. :D
wish me luck ! :X

anyway,
gonna eat med soon.
tata ^^








* you wait & see !

hii.

* cough cough !
mingli is awfully sickkk now.
dwn with a fever, bad sore throat blah.
life has been unfair to me can ?!
how can like this sobs. :/

didnt went to sch today,
dont think going to sch tmrw either.
being sick is really a bad feeling !
especially when you dont get any care & concern from the one you love anymore.
the feeling sucks to the max zz. :(

okay shall go emo.
byeeee.








* touch my heart & feel my love.

yoyo!

sharks.
dont knw what's wrong with my muscles.
suddenly ache today without any reason,
crazy muscles i have which is out to torture me rawrrrs !
& you knw whats best ?
tmrw im running for my 2.4km plus there's training too.
wish me luck. :/

shit man.
i haven do my econs hw. -.-
elascity is reallyyy boringgg to the max !
screw screw screw econs bleah !

& yeah,
ytd i have severe headache & today ?
im having sore throat. @.@
luck has been down these days seriously especially after you left me.
i lost my guardian angel. :(
wah emo shit again.

haha !
friday is parent's dayyy.
happy parent's dayy & it's gonna be my doom day too. :/








* i'm still right here, where'd you go?

hey guys.
short post alright.
having a bad headache now,
& i dont knw why too.

touch today was awesome ! :X
coach teach us how to ref & im loving it.

screw mob.
i'll do you on train tmrw.
byeeee.







* from when did you lose me in your sight ?

hihi.

snores tmrw is start of a new wk again,
i guess i will be having monday blues.
& the worse part is tmrw is racial harmony day.
well it suppose to be a happyyy day cos our class alrdy planned to wear traditional costume tgt.
but..
we have PE early in the morning tmrw & it spoils everything zz. -.-

hais.
tmrw is another long day of lessons.
im sure i gonna reach home pretty late again,
haha by this time i sld have gotten use to it luh.
but mummy is going to spam my phone again im sure.

shhh !
let me tell you guys a secret..
& the big secret is,
IMISSHIMTOTHEMAX ! :(
talk to me luh dumbass.
at least be there to wipe my tears if you are going to make me cry.








* i hope you understand how i feel & dont blame me for loving you.

heylo !

wah damn crap man,
i sprained my ankle for the 2nd time during training todayyy.
*claps claps !
thats how strong im. -.-

& mr tan is super mean i swear !
he keep laughing at me & emphasize that i sprained my ankle AGAIN !
&&& he says i prone to injuries,
hey thats not true to a certain extent !
like wth how nice of him. :/
jesdian say if i sprained it for the 3rd time,
i wont be able to walk again.
ohh my gawd i soo need to tk care of it.

ohohoh !
who to send me home this time ?
lucky audi & edward was nice to send me to tampines.
edward despite living in serangoon volunteer to send me back !
thank you gentle giant ! :D
but that doesnt mean he can keep saying im "tall" !
haha edward you better dont anyhow arh if not i leak out your secret admirer's description yo !

i need to see sinseh again,
but everything is different now.
no more encouragement from you, no more you sending me home.
i dont wish to do anything.








* one day you'll ask me, "which is more important to you, me or your life" i'll say, "My life" and you'll go and leave me with out knowing that you are my life.

im here just to tell the truth.
cos its really hard hiding it.

seriously until now i couldnt believe the ridiculous reason you gave me.
i dont want to believe & i cant.
i really really love you a lot,
far more than i thought i did.
you knw the feelings sucks totally when you love someone so badly & heartbreaks is all that you get.

i say i now only treat you as a friend.
yes i do but that doesnt mean i dont love you.
you still constantly filled up my mind.
sometimes i really feel damn upset when i see that you seems to be really okay with us apart.
cos it just hurts so much to see how you much love that person but he doesnt care.
i really feel damn awful & miserable without you.
my heart just ache everytime you came to my mind,
i simply hate myself.

i really wanted to give up but i cant,
i really cant.
thinking of the time you left in sch & getting into NS soon really depressed me.
what on earth have i done wrongly to deserve this type of treatment from you ?
everytime i see you, i really feel like dashing up to you & hug you tight.
i want to knw why you left & the thousand of qns in my mind.
but i knw i cant.

please dont ignore me, talk to me !
i feel like a idiot alrdy.
how do i stop loving you when my heart still wants to ?









* what can i do to make you come back ? im still waiting.

hey.

what a bad day today.
got back last 2 papers today which is gp & mob.
sucks to the core man,
i flunk gp & sub-pass mob.
overall i failed 2 paper, pass 2 papers & sub-pass 2 papers.
this is bad really really bad.

haha,
i think heaven is really playing a prank on me.
& its been laughing at me all along.
thanks for the rain, its been very long i walked in the rain.
i like walking in the rain cos no one knws that im crying.
can heaven tell me what he wants me to do just to fulfill my wish for once ?!
i will give up anything for that.

laugh at yourself luh,
mingli you stupid fool.
you lost totally !






* as soon as forever is through, i'll be over you.

hi.
i really dont want to talk abt how i feel today.
i think heaven is really playing a fucking big prank on me.
the feeling is really unbearable.
i will seriously break down someday.







* you said you didn't want to see me get hurt, so does that mean you closed your eyes when i cried?

ouch !
damn damn suay luh,
my poor lips kanna sunburn also. :(
now & then when i eat meals it hurts like mad zz.
frowns. >.<

ohh well anyway,
today we went over to brian's hse to do project.
snores art & culture is damn boring to me. ;/
& bishan is sooo far it took me damn long to reach.
then after that daddy came & pick me up.

& now im still struggling with the project damn.
feel soo much like sleeping laa yawns zz.
ohh i have training tmrw too,
which is going to be soo ohh my gawd.

busy busy busy.
byeeee !







* its cold without you.

heyo.

@.@
my eyes are just like this now.
sleepy to the max can ?!
woke up at 4.45 just to take the first train & reach school by 7.
eh wth,
i didnt knw the first bus only comes at 5.30 & i was hoping to tk the 5.30 train.
i waited & waited for that stupid bus that didnt came.
but lucky daddy was nice enough to send me to inter.
yeah man how dumb can i be.

ohh crap,
i have bad time management you see.
i reach sch super early like 6.30am when im suppose to reach at 7. -.-"
very clever indeed.
lucky sha & annabelle was as early as me & we went in straight after the guard.
wah if we are as early for sch days that would be good haha.

wow~
youth touch carnival was interesting !
but that damn weather made me had sunburn all over my face.
crap man, i just recover from sentosa trip that time.
& now or soon its going to peel again.
i feel like a snakeeee siiii~
okay that was retarded.

now im at home,
going out for dinner soon.
bye peeps ! :D







* music makes me move !

helloooo !
happy happy today yay !
but very tired boo. :/

well,
its interhouse tournament for touch rugby today.
& zircon won all of them yay !
we got champion for girls category can !
but super duper tired & i scream a lot.
but it was really enjoying playing with them. :D
zircon rockkkk !

finally interhouse is over & there is no more worries.
wow i got to wake up at 4.45 tmrw ?
i need to take the first train to reach sch by 7 rawrrrr !
sooo early ! anyone wanna share cabby with me ?!
yar crazy,
who will go sch so early with me !

no paper gotten back today.
& im tired.
byeeee.







* smiles for you ! :D

yoyoyoyoyo !
im kinda of hyper now haha.
pardon me for the craziness. :D

hais.
got back econs exams paper ytd,
& its screwed.
i've got a sub-pass which is like stuck in the middle of fail & pass.
like wth,
can round up the grade to a pass pls pls pls ??
har. stop dreaming you dumbass.

how abt today babe ?!
rawrrr i got back my so favourite geog paper yo !
so how was it man !
alright i shall stop being retarded & tell the truth.
i managed to just passed that paper.
im super disappointed can ?! expected better lahh !

ohh haha,
tmrw is touch interhouse tournament.
come & support arh !
but you knw my retarded ankle is acting upon me again. -.-
what luck yes.
beside that my muscles are aching badly too.
my legs are out to torture me i knw !
pls cooporate tmrw can ? :/

haha tell you something super funny.
mr idris ask, " tmrw must bring what ? "
class answer, " thermometer ! "
mr idris ask again, " for what ? "
class expression = -.-"
wow ! what can you do with a thermometer beside taking temperature haha !

tata ^^








* best thing abt tonight.

BOO ! :X
haha today is the first day of sch,
& im sooo not use to it.
been hibernating for too long but now its time to start pulling up my socks now ! :D
i better buck up if not im screwed.

ohh haha,
lets talk abt my first paper i gotten back.
its maths & what a blow i got.
i flunk it. -.-
roars i need to work double hard for that.
maths make me mad indeed. @.@

now.
the 2nd paper i got back is mt.
i passed ! got 54/90.
lesser than i expected but haha at least i knw i can do better defintely. :D
jia you !

ohh man bad news.
inter-house is on 12th july,
where got time to train !! :/
& that means training will be held everyday i guess.
yawns, gd time to lose weight though.
holidays make me fat but i think sch make me fatter boo !

alright alright.
im screwed, i need to bring my irp file tmrw hees.
but i cant find it anywhere at home ?!
some mice or ghost stole it issit ?!!
they love my handwriting too much laa, cant blame.
ehh but please return me for tmrw first. thanks. :)

byebyeeee.







* thanks for the few sentence.

hey !
ohh man, my pic alrdy super emo plus siying giving me a quote to edit making it worse.
now its like super duper emoooo lalala~
well haha, a picture speaks a thousand words yo ! :D

but honestly speaking,
im not emo-ing at the moment just that haha i dont knw why too.
you knw i learn a lot of stuff between this period of time.
how just in a spilt second a person change & blah.
wow cool ! whatever huh.

kevin kevin kevin !
you change a lotttt boo ! xD
for the better though haha.
& i like the new you !
lets jia you tgt & strive for the better.

ahh huh.
whats wrong with bestfriend ytd ?!
she keep telling me how much she miss me & dumbass leslie thought we are lesbians. -.-
but yay ! she miss me & boong say she miss me too hees. :D
i miss you guys too, hang out soon okay ?

byeeeee.







* they dont die just because you left.

hellooo people. :D
let me intro this person in the pic,
he is my little brother.
tsk isnt he fat ?!

anyway !
i went to m'sia in the morning & came back just not long ago.
i was bitten by a mosquito twice !
curse that mozzie bang into the wall & die. >.<
ohh man. im evil. :P

hawrrrr~
im jealous cos my cousin change hp & i want a change of hp too !
daddyyyy !!!
i want a new handphone please ! :)

screwed.
sch's starting soon yet everything is undone.
mingli you are screwed totally ! :/







* im glad i at least knew you are okay.

hiii.
im sorry for the ranting ytd.
but im really feeling mixed up.

i feel that..
no matter how much i tried to act okay & all,
but in fact im not.
i want to knw whats going on ard you.
how are you doing & all but i dont.

& the other side,
flash back keep coming back.
at the time where i needed you most, he's there.
i feel comfort but okay i really dont knw.

i dont want to love anyone now.
leave me alone, i need time to heal wounds.







* im breaking down.

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You're an interesting blend of traditional and modern And a Japanese guy is likely to be on your wavelength Maybe you'll show your love by dying your hair the same color Or get married in a traditional white kimono!

Which Foreign Guy Should You Date?

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free. In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you. You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy. You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now.

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aiyooo.
eugene & kj is still angryy with me. :(
sobs im alrdy scolded by kj alrdy what more they want me to do ?
im really very sorryyy ! D:

ehh..
my emotions are really mixed up todayyy.
i dont understand why.
why you leave, why im feeling that way, how are you doing now & all.
i want to knw badly.

but on the other hand,
i dont understand why im sad when i see that happening.
why its still lingering in my mind, why everything is different now.

pardon me for that,
i wont get any answers but i just wanna squeeze them out of my mind.
can we just be friends ?!

我努力的仰着脸孔
试着眼泪不往下流
别往下流

不安的感觉到什么
在我生活中不再相同
很不相同

想要说 却还沉默
伸出手 无法触碰

天空突然一片辽阔
原来你是真的已经离开我
在我不熟悉的世界过新 的生活

闭上眼 让泪水滑落
此刻你已真的永远离开我
在另外一个没有我 的世界自由的走








* too many qns, too little ans.

heyo.
i spent 1 whole day outside today.
just reach home around 8.30pm & but i went out at 7.30am.
needing plenty of rest boo !

firstly,
had a mini class outing to sentosa.
& i've got sunburn ! -.-
aww sucks !
i didnt went to play in the water.

ahh yes.
i need to sincerely apologised to kj & eugene.
im sooo sorry i didnt attend your chalet.
& kj seems so pissed with me,
making me feel very very very guilty.
im really very sorryyy ! :/

2nd round of outing.
went ktv with vic, des, yanjun, josh & terry.
they are still the same & i miss them badly. :(
it feels very good to be with them again.
awaiting our next outing yo ! :D

shucks !
my eyelids are really super heavy. @.@
i think i look like a panda with those heavy eyebags !
& im on some diet programme i set for myself.
i eat a bread for lunch & dinner. :]
ohh crap,
its not a programme laa its just that i too busy to eat alrdy.

dont ask me what i busy with !
im just busy going out & enjoying myself.
keeping my mind & heart active,
they wouldnt wander ard & i will feel better.
much less emotions squeezing their way out. :\








* its suffering when night falls.

helloooo.
yay going to sentosa tmrw !
let the sun shine yo !

ohh crap man.
some asshole complain abt my family.
crappy ! she is just plainly jealous & over-sensitive.
she say we are noisy & she needed rest,
my neighbours say she need rest please go hospital hahaha !
curse swear screw her ! :/

bad !
im having a bad headache now.
needing rest, byeeee.







* for the lonely.

hellooo.
damn im super sleepyyy @.@
my eyelids are almost shutting down but..
if i sleep now i will stare at space for the rest of the night.

crap.
i dont knw whats wrong with me these days.
especially during the hols.
i feel like a bat totally. -.-
okay im weird.

counting down to the end of the hols,
& it will be time to start studying very very hard again.
promos will be here soon.
mingli needs to stop yawning & start to worried abt meet the parents session.
ohh my gawd those results. :/

hees i didnt do anything much today again.
ohh !
& i totally fall in love with this song. (fall for you)
can anyone send me this song ? :D
thank you !

tata ! ^^







* tonight will be the night i will fall for you over again, dont make me change my mind.