It isnt such a big thing,
things just come & go really really fast.
Too fast that it feels as if i just blink an eye & its gone.
But i dont knw why i just felt that way & being bothered by it.
When he told me what he know,
i tried to fake a smile.
Yet inside of me, i'm breaking down. I controlled.
Cause its too surprising & i simply cant believe my ears.
But yes its the truth.

I wanted confirmation, couldn't get any.
But i got it, feel it while staring into space.
Yes its gone & wont be back anytime.
She deemed more significant.
Now i know & understand, what comes around goes around.
Karma happens & its back to me.
I want to apologise to him cause i did the same.

Everyday it hurts just to think.
Any single thought about it makes me want to break down.
I put a smile everyday, everywhere.
But everytime when i put on my earpiece,
i'm in my own world.
No smiles, nobody. I'm alone.

How long can i control them?
They keep wanting to force their way out!
With them, i smile & say i will get it through.
I know they do not believe me, their eyes tell.
But how do i tell them that yes i cannot take it anymore.
Really, thanks for being around.

Just accept it?
Just because i cant do anything about it at all.
You make the decision, you make the choice.
I am just waiting at the back,
waiting for you to turn around one day.

Do i look like im dumb enough to tell secrets to ppl i dont knw or not even close with?!

haha.
mingli is soo gullible.

But if you wanna cry, cry on my shoulder
If you need someone, who cares for you
If you're feeling sad, your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do

i will be here for you despite you wont need me.

audrey drew this for me.
thats what i drew for junchao.
I wasnt feeling good today,
had been moody since morning.
until JUST. Audrey & Junchao made my day. :D
they made me laugh infront of my com that my mum thought i was mad.
HAHAHA! guys, you rockkk.
i love you guys soo muchhh!

Did you see the tear on the bear's eye?
i saw it.
tmrw's another day.

MINGLI you're great!
cos you finally pluck up the courage to face love after 3years.
ever since you last confessed to junx,
you never made confessions anymore.

& yes,
i did it again.
cos i truly love him. :D

thats the lovely watch prince gave me,
his is blue in colour while mine is red. :D
nice right?! LOL.
dont be jealous. (:

woohoo.
i finally finish my PI! haha.
& i wanna go out tmrw.

heylooo!
i just reach home not long ago.
went to watch bball match after sch at aljunied.
its against tjc,
& our guys won! :D
its a really exciting match haha.

& then,
prince & me went tamp to eat & walked ard.
i enjoyed myself lots today with prince. :D
princess lovess you!
& the watch you gave me. <3

ohoh!
my sch is super cool?
they come out with this MI couple teddy which looks xtremely cute!
i want it! haha.
shall buy for myself. :(

hello.
every single of day of sch is almost the same,
except that a miracle happen today.
my chinese teacher is not in sch! haha.
she's usually around even when she's damn sickkk.
but today she arent around. LOL!

PW finally started,
i do feel the pressure & the tense situation.
suggested lots of ideas to mr.wong & all got shoot backk,
very very depressing.
but my wonderful mind cant stop generating ideas!
& finally, i gave him a idea on my PI & he say OKAYYY!
HAHAHA! yay! :D
i'm cool yea.

haha, prince is not leaving alrdy. :)

okay, retarded.

heyhey.
im moody now.
cos everyone seems to be leavingg!
& i dont like this.

moreover,
i didnt had breakfast with my prince todayy,
& prince is leaving sch.
*pouts.
i feel sooo upset.

hmm,
wondering who's my prince? haha.
he's the cutest guy on earth. :D
hey prince! im always here for youuu!
dont be moody like me alrdy laa!
princess loves you! haha! (:

hi peepsieee :)

actually im suppose to go m'sia with my parents todayy,
but i overslept haha.
baby cousinn has gone back home!
im alrdy missing her! she adds colour to my life like pretty pretty MUCHH! :D
i lovee her lots.

&&&
sch starts tmrw!
sigh, got to start workingg on yo!

blahhh`
i haven get up there.
i wanna tryy.

heylo.
i feel the hatred for fish&chips,
just because fish&co had such big servings of them haha!
i cant finish it at all.
& yes im pretty sickk of it now.

ohh man,
there are soo many movies that i wanna watch,
like for example, mall cop & the tale of despereaux blah blah blah..
too many to watch, too little time.
i want 48hrs a day yo! :D

waiting for my hair to grow longg again! :D

heyo.
i spend today doing nothing much again,
& i want to go out!
i feel like catching a movie in townnn.
maybe watchmen or anything!
i just wanna watch movieee! :/

sigh.
i dont knw what im feeling at all.
quite crappy & unrealistic.
yes im impratical at times but im never greedyy.

peek-ka-boo!
LOL, as requested by friends.
my archives is backkk! :D
so happy reading yea!

ohh.
i went food fair todayy at suntec,
there's not much stuff over there due to the recession.
& prices of food has gone up too soo its not really worth it.
spend abt 30mins there & i went shoppingg aloneee!
haha, quite enjoyable.

now. i have monday to worry abt.
& i dont want my friends to leave sch one by one.
it makes me feel really really sad. :(

heyhey youyou!
haha, im kind of hyper yo!
maybe because of the course we had to attend the whole of todayy.
i wouldnt say its fun,
but its definitely enriching & useful. :D

ohh well,
although its talks after talks.
but its engaging & gosh i had to take the mic to present some stuff.
i swear i feel retarded cos i sounded super serious,
the others who had to speak will like joking.
LOL! i think i can only be the host for serious events like business talks.

haha.
hellooo bernard! :)

hello.
i realised i like shopping alone,
cos i just did it todayyy.
its kind of peaceful & a great feeling.
no disturbance & interuption.

some weird feeling surrounds.
unable to live up!
whats up yo!?

heard some news ard,
indeed depressing.
i would never want them to leave,
life would be boring without them ard.

but..
no matter what.
i will miss you guys & we defintely are still friends forever.

sigh.
seems like only twinny & me are in some pathetic situation.
my mum is still ignoring me.
& thus, im like invisible in my house.

studied mob just now,
& tried to do the chinese hw.
i feel that i need more focus.

hi.
it has been a tiring & indeed depressing day todayy.
parents' day was a "blast" i swear,
nothing is better than being blast apart by those results.
whatever it is, im pulling up my socks for promos1.

im really really tired to talk on,
i dont think anything has been smooth for me this wk.
im tired.

heyoo!
had team building day today at sandcastle beach at east coast.
its okay laa, except that it was kind of boring.
but we would never fail to entertain ourselves hahaha.
chicken rice to some retarded actions of hah bubu & weeyang,
we arent bored at all.

after that.
twinny, junchao, jaz, marvin & me went to bugis for lunch,
audi joined us after heading home to change.
& we went to watch dragonball evolution.
i swear its a waste of time & money,
soo..dont go & watch.
unless you have lots of cash & time.

&&&& ohh my gawd,
on my way home i saw mr.justin toh who i haven seen for 3 years!
im damn luckyy & i do miss him.
he's a nice nice niceee teacherrr.
i respect him yo! :D

* you will never knw, i would never let you knw.

默默在你的身后守侯的我
多想看你不经意的笑容
或许我的心你不懂
我努力让你感动
在你眼中有多么笨拙的我
决不放弃追逐你的执着
只要你能再多些回应我
一个笑或点头全接受
能不能再靠近一点点
大声说出你所有感觉
别在紧紧关在只有自己的世界
温暖太阳为你迎接
能不能再靠近一点点
能不能再勇敢一点点
就算让我知道我永远只是单恋
我也会藏着感谢
笑着和你说再见

(靠近一点点)
Singer: 南拳妈妈Lara

sigh.
about n times i feel like dropping tears todayy.
but i held it backkk.
tired. really really tired.

heylo.
im feeling lethargic now,
without any reason.
probably because of the boring lessons & the "chocolate fiesta".
LOL!

oh anyway,
PE was quite funnn todayy.
& i swear junchao & raymond made us laugh our ass off!
they tried to do something really stupid & end up falling on their butt.
ouch! & yea its retarded.

&&&,
i wanna explore joo koon & pioneer!
like super interesting yo! :D

woohoo.
today has been a generally happy day.
except that new econs & gp teacher,
i feel so screwed being taught by him.
i will probably bluang my exams too. :/

ohohoh yay!
just now i saw lishi & rujin!
i almost couldnt recognise lishi,
until she like pulled me & that gave me a fright.
its been real long i last seen them & yea i miss them! :D

brrr..
its a cold night.
im like freezing now even when im wearing a hoodie & track pants.
ehh wait!
that doesnt seems the way to prove global warming cos its freaking cold?!
haha, maybe only tonight.

:D

heyoo.
im like totally boredd todayy.
but jov gave me a entertainment which makes me cant stop laughing.
HAHAHAH! LOL.

m&m.
xD

cheesiest drama mama!
grp discussion.

at jaren's church vday party.
fiona & me.

08b6 girlies. where's rina?

LET'S GO ZIRCON!!
woots! cheerleading todayy was awesome!
though there are mistakes but..
we have fun & we enjoy ourselves very very muchhh!

pictures beloww. :D
touch isnt awesome though,
kinda depressing cos i cant do the part for stamina.
but forget it yo!
im tireddd, nights.

:)
m&m is loveddd.

babes & hunks.
twinny.me & alicia!

08b6 cheerleaders!
zircon rockkk!

hey retarded ass.
I HATE YOU.
fuck off yea.

heyhey.
shitty, my sunburn is really bad.
im looking freaking ugly now & fat now.

& we tried our cheerleading costume todayy.
its big for me so i need alteration. :/
&&& its long sleeve sooo..
i hope we dont get heat stroke or something!
LOL.

woots.
CT is over so lesson resumes tmrw!
shld i be happy or shld i be sad?
no idea.
glad that CT is over, but sad cos mye is on the way.
& we still have to face the disgusting results.
okay, fear not!

everyday i have been seeing my friends.
& i dont feel wkend at all?!
had cheerleading today & more to go next wk.
cos fri is the sports fiesta.
its indeed abit rush & time is running out.
zircon buckk up! :D

well, im very very very broke now.