HAPPY NEW YEAR PEOPLE! :D
ytd i spent my countdown & new year with pierre, benji & sheryl.
they are all really nice people!

firstly,
met up with pierre & benji at marina bay cos we wanted to go marina barrage.
but apparently, there is a ticketed event there so no tickets; no entry as well.
so we change our plan & we head to plaza sing!
had pasta mania as dinner & then sat at starbucks playing monopoly cards.
out of like 6 times we played, i only won once?! :/
looks like i need to practiceee! LOL!

after counting down there,
we walked down to orchard road & everyone there was like damn high?
especially those bangalas haha!
we met sheryl who is actually benji's friend & we contd to walk walk walk.
& we walked to newton to have supper at ard 3am.
then we walked back to orchard.
but by that time we're all damn drained out!

so so so!
we took a ride in sheryl's dad's car & went to her house instead.
in her house we played some card games & then we all went to sleep.
its a really tiring day i would say! we cab home only at about 9a.m today.
& guess what, I HAVE TO WORK TODAY! :/
what a way to spend my new year.
but the main concern is,
i dont knw if my energy level is able to last me for the day. ohh no.

anyway, i had an enjoyable night out!
thanks people! :D

it really really sucks.
TOTALLY.

a misunderstanding occur,
you're being misunderstood & you're given no chance to explain at all.
& here comes the verdict.
this is total shit.

here's the story;
i went to your house,
& apparently you're not in the right mood.
i can tell, im not blind!
im not angry, im worried!
i dont knw what the hell can i do to actually make you feel better.
my tears was on the verge of my eyes, its going to drop anytime.
thus, i walked out of your house & take a walk alone.
i just think that i sld give you some time alone,
cos i dont think that me staying there would help any better.
after the walk, i went back to your house & you came out to tell me its time to leave.
i told you i didnt want to go alrdy,
that is because i dont want to be your extra burden of the day!
you've to take care of me, entertain your cousin when you're obviously not in the right mood to do that.
but yet probably in your eyes, i was just throwing temper.
thats why until now you decide to contd to be angry with me.
i've say my part, its up to you to believe it or not.

i miss you.
i really really do.

but why is it so hard?
i wish everything was just right, boy.

summary of 2009;

it has been a pretty tough year to get around with,
filled with sorrows, confusion, stress, amazement etc.
emotions overwhelm totally.

studies;
school this yr was really stressful.
pw, H1 As & promos has pretty much taken up most of the time.
& i realise its definitely not a year to slack.
but well apparently, i did, thats why my results isnt really good.
& to be remind of, my common test was a total mess up.
i'll never allow history to repeat itself for next year.

family;
conflict level was up & down.
but i think im given more space to breathe.
i just hope everything gets better next year.

friends;
thousand of thanks to people who're always there for me.
i really really appreciate it.

love;

to him:
im really really really sorry towards you.
i could say until today, im still guilty towards you.
its like i shouldnt have allow myself to jump into a r/s with you when i dont love you.
no matter what, you really deserve better.

to him:
we've caused much ripples in each other's life.
but im really glad that everything resumes to normal for the both of us now.
you're happy with your life & im happy with mine.
i think this is the best life we all expect each other to lead.

to him:
its totally amazing how everything starts from 7yrs ago.
how i first fall for you & was having a crush on you for like more than a year,
then we eventually got together.
but happy times was short, we'll ended.
& then its like we have been treating each other like siblings for the years down the road.
you're like the person i would definitely called when in need of someone to talk to & im really used to having you around. you've alrdy been part of my life all along, i couldnt imagine life without you.
but i think heaven is like playing a prank on us, attempt to give us a 2nd chance to love each other at a wrong timing.
although its at the wrong timing, im willing to wait around for the hurt to recover.
for the wreck in you to be slowly repaired.
because i kinda believe that 2nd chance dont come easy,
& we should appreciate it. its fate i guess.
but what should i do now? i kinda angered him unintentionally & he's ignoring me. :(
all i can say is "i'm really sorry."



i hope next yr is better.


最讨厌被误会了 但越解释越觉得难过

hello.
went tamp1 with kj, eugene & zhenhao.
sat at carls junior for an hr plus & chat chat chat.
then we kinda miss those old school days,
so we went back to the coffeeshop opposite tpss to have dinner.
there's a big change in tpss, its a totally different sch, different feeling alrdy.

after that,
took train to simei for eugene to get home & get his car.
then we went to have beancurd at somewhere?
but just because i didnt have dinner & lunch & i ate the beancurd which is cold,
my gastric is aching.
so zhenhao drove us back to eugene's house & eugene got me gastric med,
then zhenhao drove me home & kj sent me up to my hse.
its really really nice of them, thankyou guys! :D

apparently,
im supposed to go out today.
but i dont knw if i still am?



love is not a game; you dont play it.

merry christmas people!
this christmas kinda show me how i really feel.
i dont knw if its a good thing though.

alright;
went kj's hse for steamboat today.
i realise i spend more than 12hrs in his house ytd lol.
from 11 plus till 12 midnight then i cab home with eugene.
we kinda had fun there. :D
& kj's mum is like really really really niceee!?
i really like her a lot! we click really well!
well, to the extent that kj's a little worried. LOL!

at the same time,
i'm really sorry to that someone.
its like you're really not suitable for me,
& i think you deserve better cos you're a nice person.
but its just that i cant find the type of feeling im seeking for in you.
sorry.

& i realise the affection line 7yrs ago didnt really broke.

heyo!
tmrw is christmas eve alrdy people!
apparently tmrw i wont be at home for the whole day,
so here i am wishing everyone a merry christmas this yr! :D

im going kj's hse for steamboat tmrw! (:
mahjong & all the fun, here i come!

heylo!
went kj's camp's bbq ytd.
its was like really awesome?
though starting i thought like its gotta be a bore,
cos i dont knw much ppl there except vernon & yuanhao.
BUT..
it turn out that his camp mates were all real fun ppl?
so the whole thing was alright! i kinda enjoy myself with them.
(;

today's weather is bad!
rain rain rain, it just make my bed look more interesting.
:/

heyhey.
ytd was a blast!
went out with kj & his camp mates.
& yupyup, i met new friends!
benedict, vernon, yuanhao.

first stop;
i went to meet kj at bugis,
he accompanied me to get some stuff for my mum & weiping.
then at abt 6, we went over to town.

second stop;
we went to town, stopped at somerset.
but i swear i was mesmerized by the new change!
okay i sound really dumb but its been a thousand yrs since i last go to town.
me & kj was like wow! we thought we'll lost for a moment.
then we went over to cineleisure to meet his camp mates.
we had dinner tgt & then benedict, kj & me went for pool!
while vernon & yuanhao went to watch zombieland.
slack around cine till abt 11plus!
then i cab home with yuanhao though he live in yishun lol.

& apparently,
i cant wake up in the morning for a hike at mount faber with mummy.
& now she angered.
she haven been talking to me since morning.
:/

城市里 小星星

稀疏的 亮晶晶
太多光 吃掉他们的身影
就像我 爱上你
隐没在 灯海里
你眼中 只看繁华的夜景
我的爱藏在你的 背影里
想要笑着坚定的恒心
天黑的时候 我远远陪着你
再小的闪烁 也努力放光明
当有天我在夜空里面
偶尔被发现 希望我眨眼
能感动你视线
想把小星星 排成爱的图形
为你的天空 点缀一些惊奇
即使像流星一闪而过 寂寞也情愿
不求你看见 只想为你发光 永远
遇见你 小星星
孤单的 湿淋淋
你躲在有人陪伴的伞底
就像我 总被你
遗忘在晴空里
月光下 才有机会想念你
我的爱藏在你的 背影里
想要笑着坚定的恒心
天黑的时候 我远远陪着你
再小的闪烁 也努力放光明
当有天我在夜空里面
偶尔被发现 希望我眨眼
能感动你视线
想把小星星 排成爱的图形
为你的天空 点缀一些惊奇
即使像流星一闪而过 寂寞也情愿
不求你看见 只想为你发光 永远
****
我相信你说的每一句
就算是明知是甜言蜜语
可是我总觉得哪里有问题
也许这些话语不只说给我听

我相信是因为你的忧郁
所以把感情陷入难题
没关系我有做坏人的勇气
就算毁灭自己也要捍卫爱情

我全都相信相信你说的每一句
每一句我答应我可以我不会敷衍
我全都相信相信你说的每一句
每一句只差一句我爱你

我相信你说的每一句
就算是一切都变成回忆
可是我逃不开也回不去
也许这些话语是讽刺的回忆

我相信是因为你的忧郁
所以把我永远困在这里
没关系我会继续撑下去
给我勇气呼吸我只需要一句

hello.
within a night,
i kinda see the truth that everyone wants me to see.
yes i feel cheated now, like finally.

i actually believe in you.
why must you prove me wrong?
what hurts the most is you're running away,
all i need was just a word from you telling me you cant & it will be okay.
we're still friends but im utterly disappointed in you now.
& whatever i told you,
im like totally serious & i guess you actually took that into your advantage.
cos im stupid enough to actually trust you & defend you all the way.

you must be laughing at how dumb i am now arent you?
yes i'm, because i actually believe you with the whole of my heart.
i guess i just need to learn to be smarter.

hey hi.
im like pretty busy working nowadays.
sales & office! its kinda like working almost everyday a wk.
well i need more money to shoppp!

ahh yes i got my pay,
but i spend it all as well.
i knw, what a smart move.

conclusion; i'm broke. :/

heyo.
tmrw im going to work at bugis outlet!
i hope its going to turn out fine like seriously,
because recently i've been making quite a number of mistakes.
probably because i'm like kinda sick & distracted as well,
concentration is a problem i faced recently.

i seriously shld get more slp!
rest mingli! :/

heyhey.
here are some pics taken at the chalet.

today was kinda complicated.
i dont knw how sld i say it here,
but i think its pointless to say.
when i choose to believe, i need you guys to trust me.

anyway,
im not working on these days.
so ask me out! :D
8, 10, 12, 13, 15, 20, 21, 17, 28 Dec.
(;


* i believe you.

always tell someone how you feel about them,
m e a n w h a t y o u s a y & s a y w h a t y o u m e a n,
even when it's hard, because opportunities are lost in the blink of an eye but regrets last a lifetime.

i feel like asking you,
can i fall for you?

hi.
i just reach home after having lunch & dinner with raymond,
had some stuff to ask his advice from.
but it was a nice talking session cos i kinda knw how i really feel.
i should achieve what i want & not want any regrets!

anyway,
i've watch 2012! :D
watch it with ivan & it was a really pleasant day with him.
i enjoy myself a lot.
he's nice & definitely deserve to be appreciated. (:
thankyou!

ohohoh!
i finally went wild wild wet & i actually got a cut on my thigh.
*pouts.

hey.
LOTS of stuff happen,
i'm like super not in the mood to talk abt anything now.
sorry to my dear friends who came & talk to me on msn.

cried like 4rounds,
each time i repeat my story.