daddy. :D
mummy! though she warned me abt uploading unglam pics of her. :P



heyo.
went to nihon mura to have lunch with my family,
that 1 meal was like 80bucks.
ohh gosh, damn expensive though i dont have to pay for it lol.
suppose to go shopping after that,
but all of us were damn bloated & decide to head home. :)

after ytd,
i dont knw why but i kind of felt a sense of relief.
like as if i had put down a big worry in me.
yes wont denied that i was angry, upset & disappointed.
but i guess time will heal all wounds & i will get better soon.

go on girl! (:
though the process sucks big time!

countdown to your birthday mingli!
its in 4days time! :D
i wished i didnt spent birthday like how i did last yr.

heyhey.
im stucked at home almost the whole day,
i only went to have a haircut & then shop ard alone.

ohh forgot to mention,
i meet jaren to had dinner ytd at cityhall.
then jaren sent me home & then went for his driving lessons. :D

to kj:
heyhey dont be upset & frustrated alrdy. im here for you!
will listen to your problems & frustrations always.
tk care of yourself.

When everything turns out to be just lies.

hey bearbears,
is it better to speak no evil, see no evil, hear no evil at times?
im disappointed.

HELLO.
today is thurs & it sucks?!
cos its a super long day & i heard a bad story in the morning,
which spoils the rest of my day.
haha! i went emo. :/

moreover!
i screwed up my econs & geog test today.
like wow! what a bad day i could say.
but..i'll still pray for a better day tmrw. :)

sometimes i really dont knw how i sld react to whatever i heard.
to believe it or not? how do i interpret it?
i really have no idea at all.
maybe your actions would prove everything wrong?
will you?

BOO!
okay, im really really tired today.
& im going to slp soon i guess. :/
but i still take the effort to come here & blog a little.

kbox today was quite funnn,
sang quite a number of songs & josh say i need to train more.
took some pics & there it is! tah-dah!

ohh damn.
i have econs test & geog test tmrw.
HAVEN STUDY AT ALL!
im going to die in the test i think hahaha!
shall muggg on the train tmrw zz.

heyo!
haha all those photos are a test out of audrey's new phone. :D
so we played with the camera's function &..
tah-dah! we have some retarded shoots!
*pouts.
twinny im still waiting for your photos!
i wanna upload upload upload! :(

yay tmrw i guess i sld be meeting vic&gang again. :D
probably do what we always do, SINGGG!
wow! i cant wait haha.

hello.
just reach home not long ago.
went to rach's hse for bbq today with raymond & shuwen.
had a great time there taking photos & eating.
taken lots of photos but waiting for twinny to upload,
& that will take a thousand of years lol. :/

did you even realise its not the same anymore?
now it seems so hard to just speak to you cos we're drifting apart.
cos you arent putting in any effort to care a little,

hello.
yay OO & carnival is finally overrr!
its quite a successful event.
but i cant stand the number of ppl,
so noisy & crowded. :/

& damn,
i kind of injured my ankle that day.
& today i further injured it while playing the carnival game with twinny.
i really really cant run now cos it hurts lots when running. :(
stupid old injury is giving me problems again.

im really really tireddd todayy!
im going to slp now! at least early for the first time haha. xD
gd night ppl! tmrw is another better day!

加油！

heylo.
thats YUFENG. :) *forgot to intro him at the previous post.
when he came under my block to wait for me ytd night. :D
i feel really bad cos he waited for me for 30mins & i only chatted with him for 15mins.
sorry abt that. :(

today is really tiring,
had the last OO rehearsel before the actual day tmrw.
& then slacked around in the senate.
after that went dinner with sufri & carina,
but carina went off early.
ohh haha! sufri & i chatted from like 4plus to 7 at bk.
then i accompanied him to boonlay & then i cab home again!
ohh no! cab home like for consecutively 2days, damn broke.

haha yes!
OO is finally here after like soo long,
so hang in there ppl! :)
but whiny whiny! i got to reach sch at 7 tmrw. :/

heyhey. tmrw will be a better day.
cheer up!

heyo!
its really fast, its thurs tmrw.
i kind of feel that this wk past really fast.
& ohh damn, sat is the official opening & carnival alrdy.
lets get it over & done with, im kind of sick of it.
hang in there!

birthday is coming in 16 more days!
counting down to turning to 19,
ohh my gawd im getting old! :/
birthday wish this year; i wish i could spend it with you. :D

superman prince. :D

There's sch tmrw.
Good or bad i dont knw,
cos i really cant see what's ahead.
it looks kind of blur & i have to feel my way through.

i wish i could give them all a hug.
thanks. :)

Still trying hard.
like what desmond say, its not a try, its a MUST.

How do i make you care?

连你都会残忍隔绝 我的心能要谁了解
眼中烛光摇晃着熄灭 为何把我推向边缘
被砸坏了的一切 卡住了我让我无法 往前
囚禁在距离笑声最远的房间
单独隔离 寂寞地盘旋

全世界都停了电 全世界都封了街
我所有窗子外面 被贴上黑夜
我呐喊思念 却没人听见
绝望到极点剩的是疲倦
全世界都停了电 全世界白雪满天
才发觉在我心间 有回忆碎片
一作梦翻身 就刺痛流血
我卷着身体缩成一个圈
像一个句点

Tank - 全世界都停电

Seriously,
i dont knw whats wrong with you these days.
asked you but it seems like you dont wanna say a thing cos you arent even replying,
or perhaps you arent ready to say anything to me.

today,
its your turn to go down & play.
i whispered to myself, "jiayou superman!"
looked at your backview & smile,
forgetting abt what has happen last few days.
after abt a few mins,
i saw a opponent guy "elbow" you at your stomach.
& then i saw your face pale.
suddenly something is telling me you arent feeling well,
im sure you arent.
i told the person beside me, they say you look normal to them.
but i knw you dont, you're in pain, i sense it & im worried.
the whistle blow & i couldnt find you anywhere.
when i found you, you're lying on the floor.
i wanted to run over but i think again, am i in any position to do that?
if this happen last wk, i will.
but really lots has happen this wk, everything change.
all i could do is sit there & see them helping you back to the bench.
at that point of time, i looked at you.
wanting to tell you so much that im here for you, im here.
but does that matter to you?
i look at you from the side, i knw you're in pain.
i ask myself what can i do? feeling really worried yet unable to do a thing.
im helpless totally, want to go over & ask you if you're okay & sit with you.
but im afraid, afraid that you would scream at me.
all i can do is keep looking at you,
feel the pain you're feeling & sense the disappointment you felt abt yourself.
thats when tears filled my eyes.
but i knw i cant cry, at least not there, not infront of you.
suddenly someone remind me that i probably could get you some hot water.
i rushed to the watercooler, hoping there's hot water there but there isnt.
one of the referee told me that i could get hot water from the pantry but i need to seek help.
i rushed to the admin office & i had to beg that arrogant guy to give me some hot water.
but when i was holding it, i again lack the courage to pass it to you.
i wasnt really paying attention to the match, i couldnt.
i just wanna make sure you're alright.
i felt a slight relief when i saw you taking a sip of the hot water.

after the match,
you made me almost teared again cos i saw you cried.
i quickly turned away in case those tears arent listening to me again.
i really really want to go over & ask you if you're okay,
cos im really really worried.
but i didnt cos i knw you wont want to talk to me.
but i wanna tell you, im here for you though you might not need me anymore.
im still here.

in my heart, you're forever my superman.
take care & get well soon.
hope to hear from you once again like how we used to be.
i wil be your guardian angel no matter what happen yea.

hey sorry guys.
im in no mood to upload any pics.
so get back soon yea.
sorry.

sometimes,
i wish i dont even exist.
gonna take a break.

hi.
what can i say abt those uncertainty?
there are qns i never want to knw the ans.
because i simply lack the confidence to do so.
& it sucks totally to knw that this friend of yours is not helping.

it actually doesnt matter what he say.
just as long as you believe in me, nothing really matters.
but again, i still doubt that.
thats because once again i feel it.

has been easily feeling sad these days not knwing why i do,
but i guess that photo was one of the reason.
i sldnt have always think abt it yet it comes naturally.
ohh yea, im unsure of what this friend of mine asked you.
& im unsure of whats your ans too.

& yes i can sense another thing.
im just unsure whether its here alrdy or its still on its way.
but i dont knw if i would rather not knw abt it,
or feel upset over it.

heyhey.
here's a summary of the wk.
haven been going online often these days.
everyday has been a tiring day.
but today just gave me a chance as its labour day.

i sense some improvement coming along.
i did my hw, did some reading up though im still real lazy.
more to come girl! :)
im striving lol.
yet i feel my discipline is slacking lots.
had skip lessons this wk when i sldnt do it as a councillor.
it wasnt what i intended seriously. im sorry.

the stress for pw has been real heavy.
i can sense more to come & i dont really knw if i can take it.
while i still got to manage the H2s & the H1s exams this yr.
i guess it was sort of depressing that promos is another criteria to worry.
its not too late to start. NOW at least.

ohh some happy stuff.
ytd i exercise really a lot, played frisbee, volleyball, basketball.
twinny& i was really blur with the frisbee,
but we were sure good at intercepting others.
then we played vball with rekha & audrey.
got my wrist injured again but there was lots of laughter involved.
then played bball, jelly & jolene was trying to teach me how.
i had FUN guys. thanks. :)

lots happen this wk that i can only roughly rmb some.
but its too detailed to write everything down.
so thats the summary. :)


*hey superman, i miss you & i hate hols. :(