helloooo.
i haven been doing anything today.
this is bad, except maybe emoing which wasnt a gd thing too.
some emotions i dont knw who to share to.

you knw the importance of those words.
it express your feelings so that other ppl can understand how you feel.
i need them as much as anyone else,
even probably more.
i need reassurance. :/

when i cant do anything to solve my unhappiness.
i give in & compromised.
cos i really do not wish to lose something or someone so important to me.
ahhh ! well, im just emoing.
ignore me.






* say you love me will you ? but if you really do. ):

yo yo yo !
okay, im really bored to the max yo !
super bored rotting at home,
my lappy isnt interesting enough boo.

anyway,
you knw what i black out for 5s today.
i really dont knw what was happening but i found myself on the floor when i rmb i was walking.
this is bad. very bad.
i really need to do a check up.
& im really sorry dear for those negative thinking making you worried.
i shall repent haha ! :P

ohohoh.
thank you bryan & jackie !
bestie yo ! :D








* dear, i really love you & im sorry.

woots !
today we went over to nyjc for a match,
ehh maybe not a match cos we played against njc, nyjc yr1 & yr2.
& we won all the match. :)
yay !! clap clap !

but the journey to nyjc was tedious,
the bus ride make me dizzy & we had to change buses here & there.
nyjc is not a gd place to go cos its damn ulu.
& dear told me its at paya lebar when it is at serangoon laa !
zzz -.-

anyway,
i think its pretty hilarious to say that being a 18 its time to go clubbing ?
cos i think there is no advantages of clubbing & it might bring you disadvantages instead.
alright, terence stop suggesting to bring me to clubbing.
i wont !







* i have a cut again !

@.@
i having eyes like this now.
ytd i only slept for abt 6 hrs.
have been chatting on the phone with bryan & jackie.
crapping & bullshitting all the way until i cannot stand it anymore.
i was halfway to dreamland when the guys were talking abt engineering.
snore. zzz -.-

& guess what,
we are going to continue tonight.
yay crapping !
well, they teach me lessons also.
like H2 pampering bf,
im working really hard okay ! :)

okay,
i gtg.
going for touch rugby match at nyjc.
bye !! :)







* imissdear.

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY TO ME !!! xDthis bouquet of roses are nice right ?
well, bf gave them to me yay ! :)
its damn sweet of him laa,
but he claim its the birthday present he giving me. -.-
no no no ! :/
but im still loving the flowers,
though he was complaining how ugly the flower is.
thank you dear !! <3

ohh yar,
i went to sakae with dear today at TM too.
& then we went to walk ard before we go home.
& while walking ard,
i bought my birthday cake.
dont ask me why i buy this cake though it doesnt look appealing.
i just think as long as i like to eat, nothing else matter. :X
& when i reach home,
i saw a envelope on my table.
i opened it up & this is what i saw..

a hand-made birthday card from THEBESTJOTAN,

well thats what she always call herself haha ! :P

but the card is really damn nice to the max.

the fairy soo look like me laa,

jotan your drawing skills damn good hahaha ! :D
& i cant believe im 18 alrdy. :/

& i flip the page i saw these full page of words that jo written.

i feel damn touched laaa !

except for that fairychongmingli part.

if you dont understand what that means,

dont bother to. =X

upon turning over,

i saw this.

jo will forever rmb to emphasize THEBESTJOTAN part.

never failed to.

but well,99% love.

i love you JOSEPHINE TAN !!! :D

she even thanks the postman. :)

anyway, i just wanna say thank you to all the people who sms me to wish me happy birthday or wishes me happy birthday.

people like: dear, jotan, pin yow, weizhi, keli, mr.idris, selwyn, kevin, siying, farhah, xiaosi, yangtze, jackie, benjamin liang, bryan, jiawen, chyeseng, benjamin, leslie, siewhong, charmaine, eugene, nawal, jaren, boong, weesiang, alex, fathi, sufie, eddy, yuhang, may, gabriel, zhenglin, lishi, ruoxuan, brian, alicia, siewli, issac, hwee ing, magaret, xingjuan, xinyi, zhengyee, marisa, riena, yijue, jeff & blah blah blah.

sorry if i didnt list you here. :P

well, thank you everyone !! <3

rawrr !
i think, no its i have econs make up lesson tmrw or fri !
this is bad.
tmrw is 29 may laa,
how can go school for lessons !
okay. i shall think abt whether to go or not. -.-

anyway,
lazy dear never go to sch for his extra lessons.
so i went over to look for him at 11. :)
i love you dear !

oh yar,
i shall pray for victor & all.
poor them trying to handle that dumb lecturer.
i wish you guys doesnt fall into his trap.
gd luck guys !







* counting down !

2nd day & the last day of SEL camp,
i didnt attend.
why ? cos i had a headache when i woke up in the morning.
must be the motivational talk & that mouthful of soya sauce.
yucks ! :\
that taste still linger around yeah.

ohh well,
i just visited the MI touch blog.
& sadly to say,
i have lots of trainings !
30th may, 2nd, 4th & 6th june.
but well, 6th june i will be flying off to china so i cant go. :/
gotta work on double hard,
i have been missing trainings for 2 wks plus.

but..
i dread schools during the holidays.
cos dear cant go sch with me & the mrt journey is way so long.
probably i gotta get use to it cos dear wont be ard to take train with me anymore after his As.
yes, i gotta get use to it !
but if i can do it or not,
thats another problem hahaha. :D

reminders for me !
29th may- MINGLI's BIRTHDAY !!!
3oth may- touch rugby training.
2nd june-touch rugby training.
3rd june- MOB extra lessons. zzz -.-
4th june- touch rugby training.
5th june- MOB extra lessons again.
6th june to 14th june - china china shanghai yay ! ;)
after that i dont knw whats up for me but its definitly time to study for MYE.

okay,
thats all for today.
tata ! ^^







* hectic june arising.