OKAY. My blog arent going to blog anything more abt you. Maybe i will, as a friend. Bcos i am going to give you time to let go, to get over. Even if u and her get back together, its okay. Then all the best. But i will still be there behind you as a friend who can listen to ur sorrows. I promised. JIA YOU. U must stay strong and happy, if u have any problems. Can just call me ? i will there as a listening ear.


Sidetrack. Just back from Student Union camp. Its super fun and tired to me. On the first day, we had this night activity in school. Playing some detective game looking for muderers and suspect. Rather fun, but due to time restriction, we didnt have the time to finish all stations. First day was okay, i only slp 1hr plus. We slp from 2 plus to 4.30. Then no longer able to slp. Cos we getting backache. And its super cold. So we went some place to sit and chat all the way till 6 plus with THEODORA, JIALIN AND JAY. Then we went to have breakfast. lols.

Second day was even better, we head out to pasir ris beach. To play a game of 9 stations. Its super fun cos we got first. lols. Then we build sand castle with our group name. EVIL !! lols. Then me, theodora, peiying and Shu Jun try to push Alex into the sea. lols. we try lots of time, but all failed. lols. Then we had our retribution also okay. We went into the sea also. lols. Then we went back and then carry on with games at night again. SUPER FUN. Bside games still games. And dance and night performance. lols. Learn a lot of new games. Can go back teach sjab ppl !! lols.

Third day which is the last day, we have sports game. lols. Its fun. We join groups with Teletubbies. So we became EVIL TELETUBBIES. lols. I found that i meet a lot of new friends, super a lot and i am glad. I AM LOVING STUDENT UNION !! lols.

Lastly, wanna thanks Vovi and Joey. Our great OGLs who help us a lot. lols. And also my group members. Theodora, Shu Jun, Peiying, Jia wen, Guoliang, Alex and some others who leave earlier like Margaret, Fer, Weixiang, Zhi mian and Elfi. Okay, EVIL IS THE BEST. (at least better than some noisy group) lols.

THANKS FOR EVERYTHING. I ENJOY IT LOTS. :)

我要的我现在才懂得 快乐是我的不是你给的 寂寞要自己负责. 选择是我的 不是你给的 明天自己负责.

I feel so xin ku now !!! as if i am suffering. I want to cry. cry out loud to release my anger and sadness !!! i am breaking down. :( my tears arent listening to me.

Hmm. Today is a day full of breaks and fun. And also a day which i am totally pissed off.

Today had 3 hrs of break. So as usual, me, benjamin, bryan and jeff went to AMK hub. YAY !! i finally get to eat my favourite mango Ice cream !! lols. SUPER HAPPY. okay, i sound like a kid. BUT I AM. lols. Its super nice lah. I say i must bring KJ go eat someday. lols. Then after eating ice cream, we went to play pool. okay, my skills was lousy so my dearest shi fu- Jeff was trying to coach me. But he almost went crazy. He says: " ask u to shoot that ball in and then the white go in, then never ask u shoot that ball then it went in. " and he groans. lols. SORRY teacher. lols. But i seriously enjoy myself until Ben show me some msges.

Okay, here i need to vent my anger. No one will bother abt me being unhappy i know, but i just have to say. I am super pissed. I dunno how long i can tolerate. I dunno what am i going to do to him if he irritates me again. He call me some words, and blah blah blah. I dunno lah. Today is such a unhappy day for me. Althou they try to cheer me up and all. But what i needed wasnt them. Forget it. No one will understand and bother abt me. I just want someone who can understand me and treats me well. Share my problems.

Yest one of my friend told me abt his relationship prob. He likes this girl who already has a bf. But he thinks that the girl feel the same for him but he isnt sure. So he went to watch spiderman with her. and after that he gave her a ring and then tell her. " I dowan to be like peter parker, he always wanted to give mary jane a ring but never did. I dowan to regret like him. " OMG. if a guy ever tell me this, i will cry man. So touching lah. and then its like i will feel like marrying him. But now, my mind is filled with only him. His faces, his voices, his back view and the way he walks. But i felt he's not going to love me like i love him. I am always holding one sided love. :(
SAD !!!!!!!!!!

Okay, today i talk a lot and yell a lot and cry a lot. I feel so unhappy today. I need someone to talk to, i need care and concern. I need to talk a lot here today also, cos i am going camp tml, till sunday. So cant blog for 2 days. OKAY. I AM UNHAPPY, I DOWAN TO SAY ANYMORE. :((((


when i say i am worried abt you, i am seriously super worried.

When i say I love you, i really do.
When i say I miss you, i really do. And i am missing you like hell now.
When i say I miss your voice, i really do.
When i say I love walking to school with you, i really do.
When i say U brighten up my light, u really do.
When i say I am only happy when u are happy, i really am.
When i say Ur mood affect my mood, it really does.
When i say I love you for who u are, i really mean it.
When i say I want you to be happy forever, i really mean it.
When i say I will help you no matter what happens, i really mean it.
When i say I will feel sad when u are sad, i really do.
When i say I promised you, i really mean it.
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Its forever, its still going on. I LOVE YOU, I REALLY DO. :)

I am happy. Cos i started studying this wk, starting to pay attention in class. Start to want to understand what the modules is all abt. Its never too late to start. So now i start. I want to be like you, Can score As in ur modules. My motivation to go school. My movtation to study. And the reason i am happy. :)

Tml is thurs. Are we going to AMK hub during the 3 hrs break guys ? I don care. I want to go !! lols. I miss the mango ice-cream over there. Its waiting for me !! LOLS.

AND omg. On mon, that shoe that i wore make my legs have lots of blister. Then yest i bump those blister into something and one of them bleed. I didnt know cos it was inside the plaster. Until today when i flip over, and OMG. Then at the moment, I felt pain. MY POOR LEG. sobs. sobs. :(

Okay. I just wanna say. I SAW HIM TODAY AGAIN. LOLS. OKAY, BUT I AM TOO SHY TO SAY HI. LOLS. * blush *

here's my promise made tonight

U can count on me 4 life

Cause that's when I love u

When nothing u do can change my mind

The more I learn the more I love

The more my heart can't get enough

That's when I love u

When I love u

No matter what.

Today is MAY 8. Tuesday !! lols. okay, i am stupid. Its at the top isnt it ? lols.

I LOVE ZYMA. ALTHOU SHE SCOLDED ME.
Okay, in the morning i meet Zyma at 8 althou our lesson is at 10. Bcos we want to try tking 969. And i seriously didnt expect it only takes 20 mins. So only 8.20a.m when we reach yishun mrt. Then we tk mrt to Ang mo kio cos we were still super early. And then the two of us went AMK hub. Actually the main reason i was there is bcos i wanted to try my luck whether the mango ice shop is open a not. BUT its wasn't. So disappointing. lols.
So we went to Fairprice EXTRA. lols. we went in and shop shop and bought some tibits and snacks for our class. WE LOVE OUR CLASSMATES OKAY. lols. And i bought a whole packet of yakult ( issit packet ?? or what ? ). i drank 3 bottles. 1 give bryan another 1 i gave zyma. lols.
but i drank 3. so i start to have stomach ache. How i hope he was by my side at that time. :(

Meet him today to go to school. Seriously, i love going to sch with you. Even it was just a 10 mins walk. How i wish i could go to school with you everyday. :) buy u breakfast every morning.

How i wish he was my bf. Hold my hands and look into my eyes and tell me he will never let go off me. Can i love you ? I just wanna u to be loved, care and happy. U lighten up my life. I LOVE YOU !!